Still growing

When do you realize you are growing up?
There is no magical age no matter how much they try to convince us. A few things signs that I think means we are on our way:
a) you stop holding grudges life is too short
b) you learn forgiveness- you will know the moment it really happens for the first time
c) pole dancing is something you can d o sober
d) you go to the doctor and do what they say
e) you actual listen when people talk - be careful this is a dangerous thing
f) when you go out drinking with friends you are not ALWAYS the drunk one

Unnecessary commentary

I need to put a stop falling in love with any man who can maintain a conversation with me for fifteen minutes. It gets me in trouble. Besides I tend to attract 68% jerk.

Dreams

Last night, I dreamed that a man told me my life story as he sat naked on the porcelain throne. I believe I am finally cracking up.

The Crazy B**ch Theory

I know that my sanity is always in question. The other day I was talking to a friend (one of the nicest people I know) and he says to me oh no Emily (another friend of ours) is a crazy bitch. This simple statement gave me pause. Emily is one of the sanest people I know; occasionally she parties too hard. It dawned on me then that no matter how conservative and stoic a woman is some man will consider her a crazy bitch. I finally understand crazy bitch is not crazy. She is the woman in a man's life who really just wants be his friend and treats him like one of the girls because of this. She does not want to sleep with you but if she expresses interest in any other male of your acquaintance; the title crazy bitch is bestowed upon her. I guess what I am saying is thank you for throwing me out of your life as crazy bitch. I am finally beginning to understand.

gauntlet

When challenged speak these words "are you sure?". Remember this is a challenge these words should say I know what I am capable of but I do not think you do I may be a crazy person. This will save your position in the workforce. Remember it is a jungle out there.

Confession XIII

When I want to forget my emotional attachment to someone I write their name on my leg and wear it for a day.I wash it off the next day. This little routine has helped me through some hard times

but other than that.....

I stretched and pulled until there was nothing left
My mind drifted
Refuge in discovering my own character
I smile
Was that the reason you turned from me because I would not cry
Once I was filled with you and could take no more it all came pouring out of me.
A fool because I thought you would understand
after 10 long years we all need to empty and refill
Friendship is knowing we have the space left
Honesty between us needed re-examining
I loved him and not you
was that the reason
I was not fool enough to pursue it
it would have hurt you
you protected me by pushing me away
I grew up that year moved on
found that I still missed your crazy adventures
Cried
Took what I needed
I still smile when strangers talk to me
knowing the lesson is i can not trust myself
I live (the best revenge)
I remember I have nothing to prove to you

Scared

People scare me. It is not their ways ( I do not know everyone). It is their potential. I know what I am capable of and I am starting to project

Vividly

Last night, I dreamed that your breathe past along the back on my neck. HMMM. I felt it as if it was a sensation that my memory wanted to remember. Funny thing is you have never caressed me that way it is to intimate a geature for us.

Movies

This one came from Mark. I know a lot of movies. Fortunately, I only stuck with one.
"Screw Plot! I just want action up the wazoo!" (favorite action movies):
They all sort of blend together w/o the plot

"Was the movie really 6 hours long? It only felt like 2!" (movies that were so great they felt like they ended too soon):

"Gah! The movie was only 2 hours? It felt like 6!" (movies you can't believe you sat through [or maybe you didn't]):
I enjoyed the movie but LOTR

"If you tell ANYONE about this..." (movies that made you cry, even if you weren't supposed to):
any really good love story no one dies but still
most recently Pirates

"I wouldn't see that movie if my life depended on it!" (movies that you have never seen, and have no desire to see):
titanic (yup I said it)

"Cartoons, they ain't just for kids!" (favorite animated [yes, CG animation is fine here] movies):
spirited away
"I'm a romantic at heart." (favorite date movies):
better off dead
"Shockingly, I thought it was pretty good." (movies that you were surprised you actually liked):
devil's backbone
"Why am I the only one? Am I just wierd?" (movies that are generally panned, but for some reason you like them anyway):
long kiss goodnight
OPTIONAL:

"Japanese cartoons, they DEFINETLY ain't just for kids!" (favorite anime movies):

"I wish they would make another movie about them." (sequels you wish they would make):

It

I was tagged by shrewness so here goes:

2 moments in your life you'd like to erase:

* staying all night if I had left....
* whenever I engage in an argument

4 moments you'd like to relive:

* the first time I went swimming
* A single conversation on the stairs
* Holding my first boyfriend's hand
* finding someone you can trust

2 places you wouldn't go to/go to again:

None really come to mind

4 places you cant wait to visit/visit again: [ now this is a question i like!]

* everywhere

2 foods you cant stand:

* mussels
* cant stand is very harch I think I just need to have food preparerd in a diferernt way
4 foods you love:

* almost all food I have not tried everything yet and seafood I try every once in a while

2 current songs that make you change the station:

I try not to listen to the radio they alays play the same ten songs and then I find myself singing along regardless of how I feel about the song

4 current songs you play over and over:

* green eyes, erykah badu
* so hard, dixie chicks
* space oddity, david bowie
* whenever you're away from me, gene kelly and olivia newton-john

2 books youd never finish/read again:

if a book is that bad i put it out of my mind

4 books you have read more than once, and/or will read again:

* sugar
* a spell for chameleon
* the body's question
* calvin and hobbes collection

I don't think I'll tag anyone but you are welcome to do it yourself

Fishies

Ever felt as if you were drowning when you are walking down the street? I wonder if that is a physical manifestation of a possible psychological condition.

Hmmm

Today, I saw a wine bottle opener strapped to the back of a baby stroller. Where is ths baby going? Why wasnt I invited?

Over my head

Whenever I encounter a problem I can't fix I usually sleep on it. I'm sure that this sort of thing is frowned upon at work but I will keep trying. This may be the next valid business model.

A Buying Problem

I may have to stay away from stores for a while. I thought it was only a good cloth/shoe sale I could not resist. Nope found cherries for a dollar good ones too. THere were plums and peaches and you get the point. Anyway when I was done And trying to get the bag home I realized I may have a problem. I think this may become the beginning of my shut-in theory.