A conversation for painting

She said : Your favorite color is green
He said: You know it's blue. Why would you say that it is green?
She said: You are honest so you have blue but you are a coward so you need yellow. That leaves us with ....
He said: Green. You are sick, you know.
She said: Yes, but at least I am not a coward. Just easily wounded.

Not so fresh feeling

Ever feel used
As if you choose to trust the wrong person
You did all the hard work that they should have
Now they don't know what to do with you
I have been used AGAIN
Accept and move on
Accept and move on

In truth

I just spent the last 24 hours in bed because I was disrespected by a short man with ED. I think I may need to seek professional help.

Problem solving

I believe all my problems could be managed if I had a cuddle or a shotgun. I believe the shotgun is becoming more appealing.

Away

How do you leave? How do you tell someone even though we shared these intimate moments I can't talk to you anymore? When someone tells me how I can leave without breaking my heart, that will be when I walk away.

HA

When did I lose my sense of humor, I believe I will be better once I find it again.

Confession XV

I did not enjoy it. That moment when I was confronted by you. It scared me. I knew it was the turning point and I made the wrong decision for both of us.

Guilt

Where does it go?
I push away from you
Later I will wonder
Where did I go
That you no longer feel
I

Desperate Acts

Five years ago I decided to change.
Somehow, anyway I could. I tried new things. I walked more. I changed jobs (twice).
I wanted new experiences.
I was trying to find hope.
I used to be so filled with it. I would sit in a room and feel it glowing around me. It made me smile because it was different everyday. Now I wake up I do some stuff I go to sleep and pray I don't make it to the next waking.
What do you do when it's all tried up?

Push

One step closer
Two weeks gone
the typical women's way
Waiting for one more to close the chapter on this

Wrong

I did that thing
You know where you just take what you want
You seduce the old version of you
You start to say what you really mean
You don't
I took something from someone else
Embarrassing myself

Things I forgot to tell you

Hope lives inside of us so we keep moving on.
I thought I lost mine three years ago
I was wrong
It's more of a slow fading and ripping
I am certain it is gone now

Past Life

I was once told that in several of my past lives to put it delicately I provided services for men of a certain class. Until today I never made the connection that the first man I slept with was almost 20 years my senior.

Too Old

When do we become too old for hope?

Somehow

I always find myself in situations where I stop chatting politely with someone and take a ride on the elephant in the room.

Wanted

I just want to be wanted today. Is that asking too much?

terrible

When you have to defend your actions by saying you"well I do read", something is wrong in the world.

John

There are things I should tell people and things a medical professional should know
I have a plan B
always a plan B
since I turned 17
and I am so tired of living
I run
now it has caught up with me
we are not all meant to do everything
I may leave this ................

In the New Year

I will resolve to make resolutions that I have no intentions of keeping. Perhaps it is better to set goals I know i can not meet then break my heart to reach them.