laughter and tears

Emotionally I am already a mess. Controlling how I feel and when I feel it to help you is exhausting and frankly no fun.

on fat

When you spend time telling me how fat and disgusting you are it makes me sad. Sometimes I wonder what you think of me.....

If and when

You will see me do not ask me how I feel my compass does not always point North and I may not know how to reply

Confession XVI

It was once said that I was entertaining. Words and actions made it easier to light up a room. Now when I am with people there is nothing I can say. It all wants to come out but how can I tell people what i actually think. It's mostly depressing,,,and boring and self loathing. Sorry